Wednesday, March 3, 2010

From the heart today

There is a boy, I met him when he was four and now he's 17, he's had a rough week. He has seen things teenagers shouldn't see. He's grieving a grief that kids are ill equipped to handle. He has a kind heart and a generous soul. He's been a typical teenager lately, making choices that he hasn't thought through and giving his parents many gray hairs. But it's ok, because he'll be ok. I know it. I've been saying it for a long time to anyone who will listen. It's become kind of a mantra, "he'll be ok!" This is a time in his life where things could go either way and I so badly want things to go the GREAT way for him, instead of the other. I love him. I've loved him since he was a little guy in Pre-K and then in t-ball and then I cried with his mother as both of our boys started junior high and we both handled their first day of high school better than jr high but it wasn't easy to let them go but we did and we will continue to watch them grow and let them go. This letting go, it's physical because emotionally and mentally, we never ever let them go, do we? We continue to encourage their growth and their paths and we hope and we love and we give until there's nothing left to give and then, well fuck y'all, we give even more because we want too, we need too, because we must. They deserve it. The real world is so hard and they'll find out soon enough.

It's been my pleasure to watch him grow up and I can't wait to see what kind of man he will become. To meet the woman he'll marry. To hold his children in my arms and squeeze them and love them and teach them to call me Aunt Crazy, cuz he sure does. As a matter of fact, this past weekend, when he called to tell me he was ok, as we hung up the phone, he said to me, I love you Aunt Crazy!

He will be ok.

7 comments:

  1. Hopefully knowing that he is so loved and supported by wonderful friends and family makes the hard times easier. I think that the hard times only make us better and stronger.

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  2. We all need and crave love. I've never met anyone who said, I wished I'd been hated/despised/ignored more. He will be fine. I read this quote by Walt Disney just this morning: "All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you." - Walt Disney

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  3. Sounds like he is pretty lucky to have you in his corner!

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  4. I hate that he has had it so rough. Glad to hear he has a cheering section though.

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  5. I am sure he will be okay, he has lots of love, and support.

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  6. I agree with michelle...he does sound lucky to have you in his life.

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