Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Wednesday stuff

Today, I'm linking up with Shell for Pour Your Heart Out and Julie for Working Mom Wednesday. Both of these bloggers are full of the awesomesauce.






I'm using Julia's prompt about what I wanted to be when I grew up and it is a PYHO post because it comes from my heart.

I wanted to be many things when I grew up. I changed my mind often. I've always felt older than I really was. I guess some people call that being an "old soul" and I would have to agree to an extent. I stick true to my Virgo nature by being an obsessive list maker, needing a plan, craving organization. I also have an outgoing personality, bubbly even sometimes, friendly, and I've never met a stranger. These seem like two completely different personality types when I read them to myself and maybe Uncle Bubba is right when he claims I have multiple personalities...LOL I can remember wanting to be a Kindergarten teacher, a singer, a dancer, a CPA, an attorney, so many different things. I can remember wanting to go to college, then thinking that I'd never have the money for Texas A&M and deciding that I would join the Peace Corp and give in to my hidden, inner tree hugger. One thing I never wanted to be was a mom. There are so many reasons, some personal, some crazy, some rational, some irrational, some selfless, and some selfish, but all the same, I said I didn't want to have any kids. Now, I can't imagine how I ever thought that, how I ever imagined myself not being a mom. As all moms do, much of myself was sacrificed by becoming a mom and I continue to sacrifice in so many ways every day. Sacrifices I willingly make and sacrifices I begrudingly make. I wouldn't change it though. I would make the same choices time and time again if it meant I'd have my kids over and over and over again. Even on the days that I feel that I've utterly and completely failed at being a mom, my kids let me know that I haven't, that they love me and need me and that even when I struggle, I'm still the very best mom they have. They rock my socks!

11 comments:

  1. I never saw myself as a mom, and now that I have kids I can't picture it any other way. Isn't it funny how kids will do that to you? :)

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  2. Ahh see I always wanted kids. Maybe because I was taking care of nieces and nephews by the time I was 7 or 8. I was the baaaby of the brood lol so they were all having babies before I reached 3rd grade. I wanted to be the next Patsy Cline, I wanted to be a psychiatrist and did attend 2 semesters of school before getting married lol.

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  3. You forgot to mention that fact that you are my Aunt Crazy.

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  4. Um, were we separated at birth, because that sounds a lot like my processing what I wanted to be when I grew up!

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  5. I wanted to be an ice cream truck driver. :D

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  6. I wanted to be a vet....but couldn't handle seeing animals in pain. :(

    You had a lot of dreams, and seems like the best one came true! ;)

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  7. I never really knew if I wanted kids- now, I simply can't imagine life without them! What a great post, I love how you ended it!

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  8. Didn't see myself as a mom until I had them. Great to meet you!

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  9. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

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  10. wow, you had lots of ideas. and you're right... we don't realize we want to be a mom until we are one. like you, i can't imagine my life without them!

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  11. That's so funny because one of my best friends growing up always said the same thing and now she has two beautiful girls and can't imagine her life without them. It's amazing how we handle the curve balls that life throws at us! :)

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