Thursday, December 16, 2010

Why can't I be THAT mom?

I mean, I am THAT mom so very often. THAT mom who is yelling at her kids or yelling for her kids or yelling at someone for other kids. THAT mom who questions the rules that are illogical. THAT mom that bucks the system when it makes no sense. THAT mom who, at 36, is still learning when to fight and when to let it go.

Sometimes, I want to be THAT mom though, the one over there, looking cute, always soft-spoken, who follows the rules, who never fights back, who sits quietly while I am yelling at someone in defense of HER kid, the one who has the ability to go with the flow, roll with the punches, who never has to choose to fight or let go because she's just not a fighter.

Most of the time, I'm good with being the fighter, the standerupper, the THAT mom that the kids know will defend them, but sometimes, I get tired, and I lose my fight, and I just can't do it anymore. Today, this week, these past couple of months, the fight in me is just exhausted, yet I push on, wondering, yet again, "why me?"

5 comments:

  1. awww, it's OK to feel like you don't have it in you anymore. The "why me" is because SOMEONE has to be THAT mom... Not everyone can be the laid back "oh, no worries" mom. Besides, being from the south, we're taught to be polite, to back down to authority, to never speak our minds, to shy away from confrontation, etc.
    We need more people like you.
    It's OK to say no, though. Just as long as it's not forever :)

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  2. Why you? Because you are that mom who is brave enough to stand up for what she believes in, even if it makes her not the most popular person in the room. You are that mom, who doesn't let people take advantage of others, who isn't a mindless sheep, who doesn't think that authority figures are always acting in our best interests. THAT is why I love you.

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  3. OH sweetie I hear you. When you know you are not the only person who feels the way you do but you seem to be the only one saying it.. but when you win everyone else celebrates as if they did it all. I hear ya.. sending you hugs and love and some peace of mind even if for only an hour or so

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  4. I love you because you're THAT mom, not the mousy, afraid mommy in the corner. There are too many of THOSE kinds of moms (see my last blog post for an example).

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  5. There are too many of THOSE moms who are afraid to rock the boat. I agree (because I am right there with you) that sometimes being THAT mom is exhausting. But, in the end, your kids will know that you are going to fight for them. And that is the most important thing.

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